melt my soul.

reflection

penny for your thoughts?

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." --Marilyn Monroe

and also, a very dear friend of mine said this to me:

‎"very little of life's course has to do with what happens - it's how we act and react that determines the types of people that we are, and the types of lives that we lead."

and happily...

it's the weekend.

:D

just another ordinary day

"Hi, my name is Kara. I'm a representative for Criminal Justice colleges. It shows here that you requested information online about schools in your area...is that correct?"

i think, on average, i'll say this around two hundred times or more a day.

sometimes i feel like i rant about my job a lot. but when the hours drone on of saying the

same thing over, and over, and over....it just gets to you.

so, yesterday, i signed up for my college classes.

...it was weird...

it was like, you just picked what you wanted and they either had the time/class/teacher you wanted or they didn't. and that was that. i felt like it wasn't absolute or set in stone or anything...which kind of worries me. but, the classes i have, i think they'll be great. i'm really looking forward to college. i know for sure i won't be used to all the studying and what-not, but that's what study buddies are for, right?? ;]

also, last night i had dinner with some of my friends.

they made Nepali food.

it was this really good chicken-rice-curry type thing.

so, aparently in Nepal they eat it with their hands...

oh, yeah. i ate it with my hands.

YUM.

i throw my hands up in the air, sometimes.

i have been so busy lately. and happy, too. and i've been going non-stop.

....but you know what?....

i LOVE it.

have you heard this song?

it's one of those awesomely-amazing-drive-with-the-windows-

down-get-stuck-in-you-head-for-days song.

whenever i'm tired, or happy, or partying with my friends, or driving late

at night...this is definitely the song of choice.

i definitely reccomend it.

:D

i never realized how much i was going to dislike having a job. the money part...yeah, that's awesome. the sitting-in-the-desk-taking-phone-calls-for-six-hours part, yeah...not so much. what i do enjoy is what happens after work. ...the fun. :] this past week i've gone over to Wyveiw Park [that's where all my friends live] every day after work. there is seriously always something to do. whether its volleyball, swimming, basketball, watching a movie, eating or cooking dinner with friends, SpoonItUp :].....seriously, the list goes on.

that was the main thing i was worried about when i came out here. that i was going to be bored out of my mind. and have no one to hang out with. and nothing to do.

boy was i wrong.

i'm seriously loving my life right now.

go, go, go

these past few days have been GO, GO, GO. this weekend was the weekend of the 4th of July. we mostly celebrated on the 3rd, since the actual holiday was on a Sunday this year. every year in utah on the weekend of the 4th, someone plays in the Stadium of Fire. this year it was Carrie Underwood. we tried to get tickets, but sadly they were sold out. however, we did watch the fireworks from the street outside of the stadium. they were so awesome. it was well worth it. afterwards, we went back to the apartment and made 7-layer bars for Ava's birthday. yummm. :]

the next day was fast sunday. and so that night our ward had a "break the fast". it was really fun and there was lots of yummy food...including 7-layer bars. (again, yummmm :]) after that, me and andrea played Catch Phrase with a bunch of people. and then someone suggested that we could go hiking the Y to watch the fireworks from the top. so, we did! it was getting dark by the time we started and it was a brutal hike. i'd never hiked the Y before, and my legs could surely tell. most of the way up it's a steep incline. but the view from the top was way worth the pain. we watched the tiny fireworks in the distance and even saw a few shooting stars. when we were done it was getting pretty late, but andrea and kellee and i decided to join the masses and camp out on the side of the road for the parade in the morning. it was difficult finding a spot, but we finally did. we barely got any sleep due to our lovely neighbors who thought it would be funny to yell all night. we woke up pretty early and walked back to andrea's apartment to get ready for the day.


(andrea and I; megan, alycia, and I laying upside down on the Y; part of the group that went hiking.)

we had breakfast with mallory and her family. (they were such a cute family and really good at volleyball ;]) after volleyball, andrea, bryan, ryan, john, and i were going to get Jamba, but they were closed. how did we improvise you ask? homemade smoothies! and they were delicious. we then spent the afternoon at a little lake in Mona. the water was freeeeezing, but i still managed to get a little sunburned. the rest of the night was spent making dinner, storytime, making the best banana bread ever, and watching Hardball.

this weekend has for sure been the most jam-packed i've had in a while. with the most fun that i've had in a long time. and all-in-all, it was a blast. i'm really loving the "college" life. all the people i've met thus far are way awesome and so fun. things can't get much better right now.

things i'm learning.

it's amazing how quickly you have to learn to adapt when you move away or start experiencing new things. living on my own, (well i'm not totally on my own, but i'm close enough to it.), so far has really taught me a lot about myself and has enlightened my somewhat ill-informed perception of adulthood. i'm not gonna lie...being responsible is hard. you have it made when you're a kid. but when you actually have to start making your own decisions and being responsible for things that are important and have weight, more time is taken on how you should act...well, at least for me. some grown-up things that i've done just in the past week of being here are:

-moving. that in itself was pretty hard and it took a lot for me to leave.

-getting my first REAL, PAYING job. even though it is so boring, i'm making $$ so i can't complain...too much.

-managing money. i've never had an income, or had to pay rent OR buy groceries...which i actually did the other day.

don't get me wrong though, i love my new-found freedom and maturity. it's broadened my understanding about the "real world"...even though i think Provo is kind of it's own little world. but hey, i get to walk outside to this everyday, so who can complain...

it's official...

yes, folks, that's right. i've gone public. i debated for a good while whether or not i wanted to be a part of the masses and start blogging. some good reasons i came up with for finally jumping on the bandwagon are:

#1- my free time now has grown in large quantities due to idle time at work and free time at home.

#2- i've always enjoyed reading others' blogs and thought maybe some of you would get a kick out of reading mine.

#3- ...and even if no one is actually going to read this, it will be a great way for me to expell a lot of the thoughts i have going on in my mind.

and finally,

#4- i mean, it wouldn't hurt to try...so i'm giving it a go.

Even if this is a total waste of time, maybe somewhere along the way you might find out something you like. and hopefully i'll get the hang of this blogging thing and get better at it. so hang in there!...because it might take a while. ;]

"Some people say they haven't yet found themselves. But the self is not

something one finds; it is something one creates."

-Thomas Szasz-