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i am happy-truly.

i haven't been able to say that for a long time, or at least it feels like it. i honestly wake up in the mornings now excited to take on whatever the day brings. these past two weeks have the best i can remember in SO long. i might've had a few experiences that helped me out with that, but regardless, i am happy. and i realize how lucky i am and have been as of late.

i catch myself in the most unsuspecting places just thinking about life. where i'm going, where i've been, who i know, who i love, what i want, and what's important.

i can't even begin to really understand forgiveness, but i know it's real. i know i am blessed with that priviledge. and i, too, am learning how to forgive. i am so undeniably grateful for everything that's happened to me. the good, the bad and the ugly. every hard experience that's shaped me, tested me, questioned my beliefs, hurt me, healed me, helped me, blessed me. i reminisce. more than i should. but now, it's not to long for things that once used to be, but to reflect on the things that were and JOY in those experiences.

i'm learning to let go- and let life take its nat ural course. deep down, i have this unrelenting need for things to go my way. i feel like this is natural, but i've been practicing supressing that need. i've figured out that i am so much happier when the people around me are happy. stop. take a second. and breathe. think before you speak. express your appreciation. smile at a stranger. help someone in need. avoid confrontation. you'll be amazed at the difference it makes.



"Do me a favor… Stand up, walk to wherever the nearest window is, and just look outside. You may not know this, but there’s an entire planets-worth of summers, friends, sunsets, street lamps, songs, late nights, great films, and night skies waiting for you. Your life is as amazing as you want it to be, but first, you have to let it be that way." -chad sugg




ps- i signed my contract for fall and winter! i cannot wait. :D

tune my heart to sing thy grace.

Come, Thou Fount of every blessing,
Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;
Streams of mercy, never ceasing,
Call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
Sung by flaming tongues above.
Praise the mount! I'm fixed upon it,
Mount of Thy redeeming love.

Here I raise my Ebenezer;
Here by Thy great help I've come;
And I hope, by Thy good pleasure,
Safely to arrive at home.
Jesus sought me when a stranger,
Wandering from the fold of God;
He, to rescue me from danger,
Interposed His precious blood.

O that day when freed from sinning,
I shall see Thy lovely face;
Clothed then in blood washed linen
How I'll sing Thy sovereign grace;
Come, my Lord, no longer tarry,
Take my ransomed soul away;
Send thine angels now to carry
Me to realms of endless day.

O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be!
Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here's my heart, O take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above.

hey, 2011. wassssuppp?

"it’s a funny thing coming home. nothing changes. everything looks the same, feels the same, even smells the same. you realize what’s changed, is you."
-the curious case of benjamin button-

it's been a while...in the past month and a half i have...

1. finished/survived my first semester of college.

2. went home for christmas.

3. saw old friends i haven't seen in six months.

4. spent time with my family.

5. realized how great my life is.

6. but at the same time realized how hard growing up is/has been.

i have loved, loved, loved these past seven months of my life. i feel like i say this all the time, but i have learned/grown up so much. but at the same time, i feel like i have so much to learn...because i do. i've started school again. i don't know how i feel about my classes yet, but i think that i'll be able to love them a whole lot more than i liked my classes last semester. almost half of my classes are about family/marriage/development. and i'm excited about that. this kind of stuff is so fascinating to me, despite all of the lengthy papers i am going to have to write. i'm sure that this is going to be the best semester ever, and i'm really going to work hard. i have so much to look forward to, too.

-summer :]

-new apartment/roommates

-new friends

-new job...hopefully.

-new adventures

i couldn't be more excited. b-t-dubbs, it's two thousand and eleven...2011. wierd.

pleaseexcuse me while i go out and dance the night away with my favorite people.