my life is cooler than most.

yesterday was my birthday.

my 19th birthday to be exact.

i want to say that my day was spectacularly amazing and that i got everything that i had hoped and wished and dreamed for- but i didn't.
but that's okay.
it was just like that one vanessa carlton song...you know,
ordinary day.

but here's a little tidbit of wisdom for you - that's life.
"special" days aren't always going to feel like you think they should.
days are special, or become as such, by the way you treat them or react to them or remember them.
you [along with some help from people who you think are special] make the day.
as i've gotten older, i'm beginning to realize the significance of life events. rather than putting so much emphasis on one special day or event, i'm living off the singular moments that make those days so special.
and that's been enough to get me by.

this month has caused me to reflect on the happenings of my life from the past year.

i think about significant moments.

i think about my favorite days.

i think about memories.

i think about the incredibly amazing people i've met.

i think about the relationships i now have with those people, and what it took to get them where they are today.

i think about how blessed i've been.

and i think about the many good times to come...

i would totally do a shout-out to all of the people who have influenced my life so much in these past few months, but i feel like i don't even need to. i know these people know who they are, and i know they know how i feel about them and our relationship. [or at least i'm assuming] i didn't know you could grow so close to someone in such a short time, and i have with many people.
i have so much love for these significant people. i feel so blessed to be so lucky.

in other news,

i'm sure many of you are wondering what my treatment schedule or process is going to be like, so i will inform you. i am starting chemotherapy this wednesday. i will be on a 28 day cycle that will have me being treated on the first day and the fifteenth day. so. i start on the 13th of april and then my next treatment will be on the 27th of april. so i'll basically be going twice a month.
two treatments = one cycle...six cycles = 12 treatments = six months. 
confused? ;]
so we're looking at being done around mid-october. i'll keep everyone updated on how it goes, because i know a lot of people have asked me about it, and this seems like the easiest way to let everyone know.

oh, and i would just like to publicly thank Andrea Sarah Hoffman, my best friend, for making my day (making my week or month, more like) here is the video that she made. [almost] everyone that i know and love is in this video. i watch it and am just amazed at how awesome my life has been and how many memories i will get to make with these people in the time to come. i have met some of the most amazing people. i truly can't say enough about them. watch this video and you'll understand.